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i dont get it. i dont get it at all. it makes me wanna cry. i hate this feeling. for the past couple days i dont know what has got into me. i love you so much. your my everything & always will be. i feel so bad. im sorry baby. i will stop, you tell me something has to be wrong but honestly i dont know, its not that i wont tell you, i just really dont know whats going on anymore. last night killed me.. i hate to see us like that, were so much stronger & we both know that. i love you baby with all my heart, nothing will everrr change that. never. i will stop being this way because i hate to see you hurt. mikey i love you.
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[23 Aug 2005|07:21pm] |
can i tell you how much i love my friends. you guys are the besttt. the suprise party was awesommee!! I LOVE YOU GUYSS SOOOO MUCHHH!!!! aww and thank you everyonee. you guys are sooo sweeett.
kissess.
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[20 Aug 2005|11:30am] |
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ahh just got back from florida!
the trip was amazingg!
but i missed you all. it felt so good to get home.
i passed my drivers testt! ohh yeahh babyy.
and todays my birthdayy.
i get my license on mondayy
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[01 Aug 2005|07:19pm] |
there will always be..
that one guy
who will be with you every step of the way
the one who doesnt stop kissing you
because he knows how much you love it
and who will lay with you forever
the one you can be with all the time
and who you can fight with
and still know
that when you turn away
he'll come running back to you
the one who tickles you
because he loves to see you squirm
the one who will dry your tears
and tell you that everything will be okay
that one boy who will be your best friend
the one you can laugh with
and he will always make you smile
that one boy
who will make you feel like the luckiest girl in the world
.i love you mike with all my heart.
and nothing will ever change that. <3
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[19 Jul 2005|12:25pm] |
everything i think is okay now, i can start to relax. i thought it was going to be over. :( but its all started all over again. & i love it, its great.
wow but everyone seems to be changing.. do you agree? some people that i have known and grown so close to seem to be different, they have changed. i dont understand it. i wish it was like before. but i guess were all changing in a way. i guess i will get over it. so anywayss, i had major bonding time with kelly & anna. i love them. ♥ we had soo much funn. hah. well i think anna was having the bestt time everr :) i love you annaaa. but yea- i miss everyone, i barely see anyone anymore. & i dont know if i like it. but i guess im going to have to live with it :(
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[29 Jun 2005|08:20am] |
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soo a couple days ago was me & mikes sixth month ♥ im am just going to have to say he is probably the cutest person in the worldd. so he came over in the morning & then we decided to go to his house to go swimming. so i started to get in the car & i saw roses and a card laying in the seat. it was the cutest thing in the worldd. i love himm. thenn i read the longg card & all im gonna say is that it was so adorable and it made me feel so special. thenn after a while we went to antonios for dinner, then a movie after. we saw madagascar. omgoshh it was the funniest moviee! soo good. loll soo yes, it was a perfecttt dayy. i love you sooo much michael. thenn yesterday i was crying for like two hours bc something happend that i did. aww- but my mom and mike were there to help me. ♥ i guess just horrible things are just happening to & with cars when i come around. thenn mikes carr got hitt when my sisters friend was backing down the drive way. -nott good. this summer is amazinggg. i love it. & only two more months until i get my license!!! get exciteddd!! okay well im outt. im going to watch a movie with mom, then mikes coming back over after his hockey game.
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[22 Jun 2005|12:26pm] |
summer is love ♥
summer time is one of my favorites.. no worries, no drama, no seeing ones your sick of seeing, no studying, no worrying how you look, & no more being compared to others. once school ended i have been able to actually relax, go see a movie or even just sit on the couch for hours. i love it. i just love everything about summer.
so this month is me and mikes sixth month ♥ i love him & i love the way he makes me feel. hes amazing i couldnt have asked for anything better. i feel like i can say, wear, or do anything in front of him, and he will just love, and treat me the same. we have something that is so special & wonderful that i feel like im the luckiest girl in the world to have him. i love him. hes my everything.
new live journal stuff. i hope you like it, i just got really sick of the old stuff. i didnt like it anymore. comment leaving your opinon.
love you.
byeee ♥
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this is probably going to be like one of my last updates for the summer unless i get really bored. so anyways. i died my hairrr. i love it this color more. its like reallyy reallyy dark. butt its sweet. haha this summer has been amazing! no doubt about it. :) everyday i have hung out with mike. & whit, sean, and chad too. no laur though. shes been gone at camp. & i miss her like crazzy.. last night was soo much funn. at DQ me decided to get ice cream on me. so i decided to get him back ;)hah. thenn we got home around 11 and went for a longg walk into another sub. & i love late night walks. they are amazing. well so today is Fathers day. and were going to my grandmas for the day, then im probably going to hang out with mike at night. okayy- im out. gotta get ready. i loveee youuuu.
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Are you...
(x) in love
(x) wearing pants
(x) wearing a shirt
(x) wearing a bra
( ) wearing boxers
( ) a victim
( ) single
(x) taken
(x) weird
(x) awesome
(x) prep
( ) goth
( ) punk
( ) lonely
(x) tired
( ) black
(x) white
( ) tired of labels
Do you...
( ) like to cry
(x) eat ramen noodles
( ) love school
( ) love dorks
(x) love me
(x) love your LJ
(x) kick ass
(x) like shirley temples
( ) worship someone
( ) have a girlfriend
(x) have a boyfriend
( ) think you're going to break up with girlfriend/boyfriend in the future
( ) secretly hate them
(x) own a thong
(x) sing in the shower
(x) hate bush
( ) hate kerry
( ) hate america
( ) hate where you live
( ) love bush
( ) love kerry
( ) love america
(x) not care about politics.
Have you ever..
(x) started a fire
(x) told someone you loved them
(x) told someone you hated them
( ) been in a taxi
( ) been to NYC
(x) been on a train
(x) been on an airplane
(x) left the country
(x) lied to someone you love
( ) wanted to die
(x) felt everything was perfect
(x) kissed someone of the opposite sex
(x) kissed someone of the same sex
( ) had a crush on someone of the same sex
(x) regretted kissing someone
(x) been in love
(x) taken a dance class
( ) went somewhere via subway
(x) went somewhere via horse
( ) went somewhere via monorail
(x) went somewhere via scooter
(x) snuck out
( ) gotten caught sneaking out
(x) been walked in on in the bathroom
(x) hated someone
( ) been in a fist fight
(x) broken a bone
( ) got surgery
(x) been made fun of
( ) kicked someones ass
( ) literally kicked someones ass
( ) wished you were someone else
(x) cried because you were happy
( ) failed a class
( ) tripped and fell on your face
(x) tripped and fell on your ass
(x) lost something important
(x) lost someone important
(x) seen something you shouldn't have
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sooo yesterday was the last day of school.
& it was sooo muchh funn.. it all started when
me and mike went back up to the school to
get laur bc she didnt have a ride. thenn. me
mike, alec, and laur went to mikes. thenn jared
and chad came. we all went swimming. then ate pizza
thenn. we all drove to the lake and went on jareds boat,
& went tubbing. omgoshh let me tell youu. i dont think i had
that much fun in soo longg. soo being out on the lake for
hours, it was time to come in and go home. so we
all went to our houses and took showers. thenn mike
calls right after i get outt, and says hes coming overr so
mike came over, we went to go pick up antonios with
my madre, thenn ate. thenn we went to chads with laurr.
it was okay, but.. me and mike felt bad bc we were really
hyper, and chad and laur.. umm well yeah wasnt that good.
buttt. thank god, everythings okay now :) soo thenn we decided
to leave, and on the way home we saw colin sean evan and
some 8th graders and talked to them for like 30 mins, and decided
to go overr to mikes to go swimmingg. that was soo muuch funn too!
soo yeahh-- that was my day. it was soo much funn.
i love youuuuuu
erin
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this day was AmAzInG.
i couldnt have asked for a better day.
so i got homee- and me melina and gen made some food.
thenn i got a phone call from mike. and so i told him that
i was going to go to hollys talent show thingg-- soo
he complained about how he didnt wanna go. but yea..
he went :) & he had a blast. hah. <3
thenn while walking back from hillside. i was swinging
mikes keys and umm yea. they went really high up and
got stuck in the tree. let me tell youu. nott a good thing to
do to mike when hes already really hot, and just wanted
to get in the pool.. he was very upset and mad at me.
oops. sorry baby i love you.
yeahh-- so an hour went by. after having to go to his
house to get this huge pole, then going back to my house
to get a ladder we were tiredd, hott and we just wanted to
get in the pool. sooo we went to my house. got water,
and watched meet the barkerss.. my favorite show in the
whole wide worlddddd <3 yess. its on tonightt! i cant wait.
anywayss.. then we went to mikes housee, got in his pool.
let me tell youuu. it was funn ;) hah.
thenn we layed outt for a bit, thenn came in and grabbed
something quick to eat, thenn went to my house to get holly.
thenn so my hair was really gross, and filled with chlorine.
so mike washed my hair in the sink, thenn i washed his.
hah thenn we watched hollys 5th grade graduation video
thingg.. aww & mike. i loved how you whispered that
too me. aww . i love you.
thenn now its time for me to studyyy.
lifes so good. i couldnt ask for anything better.
schools ending in two dayss.. AHH! cantt wait
summer is going to be just like today.. ahh.
yess.. best feelinggg everrr.
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wOw this weekend suree felt like S u M m E r is here :)
soo much funn-- swimming at tonys with all the boys.
watching them like kill themselves jumping off the trampoline.
hah. thenn walking every where, going out to lunch
with colin, sean, chad and zach. thenn laterr mike coming over
thenn we both went back over to seans. then coming back
and getting in the hot tubb. ;) those were just the highlights!
ahhh f I v E more days of school!
i can't believe summer vacation
is almost heree! wow- so excited
comment on anythinggg <3
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[31 May 2005|08:11pm] |
honestly. i dont know even whats going on anymore between us.
but i dont like it. and i think you guys know who you are....
but other than that. this weekend was AMAZING
friday. mike came overr so we could see
eachother before i left for the weekend up
north. thenn woke up got ready, packed and
left. up north, woww sooo sooo sooo much funn
for sure need to do that again anna!
other then a few things that kinda made me
soo soo soo mad, i had an absolute blast!
-those type of phone calls i dread. let me
tell you. yeah anna saw how upset i was,
but i wasnt gonna let that ruin my weekend
soo after five longg hours in the car
coming home, i had to go to my grandmas.
i guess it wasnt as bad as i thought it
would be, but thats kinda the last thing
i want to do is justt get outta the car
for five hours then get picked up to go
right to my grandmas. thenn came home
and mike came overrr. aww let me tell you
i dont think that i could ever miss someone
as much as i did. i love you. <3 thenn
we made some much needed love. hah- i wish.
anywayss.. hah- today is tuesday, today
went by really fast, then after school
mike came overr. and yeahh. im so in lovee <3
leaving right now to go watch the pistons
with dad and holly. whoaa! hah.
peace love
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[27 May 2005|08:46pm] |
wow-
i cant even begin to tell you
howwww excited i am for this weekend
i need it soo baddd
friday hanging out with mike.
im gonna miss you soo muchh.
then sat. til monday.
for sureee going up north with annaaaa
ahhh. im soo happy! we finally get to
get outta here and get away from all
the drama. im starting to hatee north
like no otherrrrr.
wow. up north- anna um can i just say
were gonna have the funnesttt time!! haha
ohh yeah.. we already planned all the stuff!!
hahaha i love you ohhh soo muchh annaa
soo yeahh its like almost 9 and im waiting
for mike to get home from his gay track thing
bc then were going to the fair. well yeah
i think he just might wanna stay here though.
donno.. but yeahh.
well right now i should be packing and
finishing all my homework. but thats not
gonna happen. hah. todayy i slept the
wholee day. wow much needed sleep! :)
kk welll im gonna go watch t.v for a bit
thenn i guess go pack until mike callsss.
i love you always and foreverr
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[26 May 2005|07:33pm] |
wow-
dont know what to think
i love to think that
everything is going well
with your friends. but
i guess things arent like
that anymore. and honestly
it makes me sad. :(
well. i guess i will be okay
i still have mike, and always
will. but it scares me
about the others.
i guess i will have to forget
about it....?
soo today. love came over
and we just watched oprah
and rob and ambers wedding
thenn i got starbucks
while mike got cold stone
<3
this weekend. friday mike
has a track meet :( and it
sucks bc i think its gonna
be the last day i see him
til tuesday if i go up
north with annaaa!!! :)
this better work outtt
ughhhhhhhhhhhhh
i dont get whats
going onn & why this is
happeninggggggg
ughhhhhhhhhhh
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wow honestly. this has beeen
the best weekend i have
EVERRR hadd.. soooo soo much fun!
- it all started when me and mike
were hanging out with chad and laur
then we went back to mikes. then
theyy left, then me and mike watched
t.v, it was oh so late, so i feel asleep
and he woke me up like an hour later
and carried me to the bed.
thenn he kept me up for like two hours
then we went to bed. i just want to say
i love you soo much.. ♥
it felt soo good just to fall asleep
in your arms and wake up there too.
then he had a track meet in
the morning so then i went home. thenn
layed outt and went shopping the whole
day, then mike came over sat. and just
watched t.v thenn we went to murphs
bondfiree ahh.. funn! i love you guyss
thenn alec dustin and me all went back
to mikes.. then later they left, and me
and mike talked for hours then went to bed ♥
soo during the night, we both woke up like
every hour and just layed there, and he
just held me so tight. aww. i love himmm
soo then we got upp hah i love the
way you woke me up! hahaa thenn we
didnt even get ready we just went out
to breakfast, thenn came back to his house
and just watched talked and stuff. then
i had to go home to watch holly, bc my
dad was going to mexicoooo ahh how unfairr
but yeahh. thenn mike didnt come over later,
bc his parents came back from outta town
thenn i just slept allll sunday (bc i got nooo
sleep bc of mike) thanks love.
noww im gonna go do my homeworkk, so mike can
come over after track.
i love youuuuuuuu ♥
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wow- i cant even begin to tell you how in love with whit and laur i am. <3
friday: after school laur came over. we got in the hot tub talked for hours,
then called up whitney to tell her to come over noww. but of course knowing
whitney, it was like 2 hours later that she came. hah love you. thenn whit came
overrr. and took about 500 pictures. wow they look sweeett. <3 thenn me and
whitt made up liek 20 dances. haha nott sure whyy lol. but yea they turned out
awesomee. thenn around 7 mike called me bc of the storms he didnt get to finish the
track meet, soo he decides were gonna hang outtt. soo we call up chad anthony and
jared and told were all hanging outt.. so we decided to go to the "haunted" house
haha.. omgoshh let me tell you i dont think i've been that scared in my lifee
and mike wouldnt stay behind me and whittt so we were like all walking in
the scarryyy house when it was like soo dark, wow- being the last people
nottt funn.. me and whit were about to die, thenn so we all ran out, and
mike anthony and chad wanted to go back in. i was soo scared for themm. hah
then we all ran to the car. and mike and jared drove all of us to 7/11 afterr that
we all went to jareds. umm. yeahh let me just say when the boys all get together
to talk, they talk about the most pointless things in the worrlddd. but yea,so it
made me mad. hah. thenn around like 11:45 mike droped laur off and me and whit
slept at my house, we wanted you laurr. <3 thenn woke upp and whit had to go home
thenn i went shopping, and did stuff and got stuff for my room! thenn went out to eat,
then mike came overr. we went to the mall and cvs, and wanted to come back to
my house bc we were tired. soo he watched his gay show, while i like slept. <3
ahh- i dont want this weekend to be overr i hate sundayys. but this one will be okay
bc mikes coming overr then the survivor finally is on tonighttttt!!!! :) yesss!!
i love you ohh so much
-erin
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Tell her you think shes amazing. Tell her why you think shes so amazing.
Play with her hair.
Talk to her in movie theatres.
Snuggle, Hold her hand, and lightly kiss her.
Pick her up and pretend youre going to throw her in the river; she'll scream and fight you but secretly, she'll love it.
Hold her hand and walk. Hold her hand and run. Just hold her hand.
Pick flowers from other peoples yards and give them to her.
Tell her she looks beautiful.
Introduce her to your friends as "The most amazing girl I know''.
Sit in the park and talk to her.
Take her to the library, ice skating, playgrounds, and coffee shops.
Tell her dirty jokes. Tell her stupid jokes. Whatever it takes to make her laugh.
Write poems about her.
Walk with her, even if its just around the block.
Throw pebbles at her window at night.
Surprise her.
Do things that make her smile, make her laugh, and make her want to kiss you right on the face.
Be spontaneous.
When she starts yelling at you, tell her you love her.
Give her back rubs.
Play mud football with her.
Play in the snow with her.
Let her fall asleep in your arms.
Call her. Even if its just to say hi.
Call her back if she calls you.
Jump on the bed with her.
Sing to her, no matter how bad you are.
Carve your names into a tree.
Get her mad, then kiss her.
Push her on swings.
Give her piggy-back rides.
Stay up with her all night.
Leave her little unexpected notes on her car, or on her door, or in her locker saying how much she means to you.
Take her to romantic places and lay out blankets to look at the stars.
Make up nicknames for eachother.
Show up at her school or class unexpectedly.
Send flowers and dorky notes that only you two understand.
Teach her guitar.
Lend her your cds. Make her cds of songs that remind you of her.
Write her letters.
If she asks you to go to a show with her, go, even if it means a 5 hour car trip.
Go out on a road trip even if theres no destination or you cant be gone long.
Take her to cool shops, and let her take you to even cooler ones.
Listen to her favorite songs.
When shes sad or sick, hang out with her or stay on the phone with her, even if shes not saying anything.
Buy her ice cream.
Let her take all the pictures of you she wants.
Look into her eyes.
Slow dance with her, even if the music is fast.
Make her a romantic dinner for special days.
Remember dates. Even ones like your first kiss or date and surprise her on the anniversary.
Kiss her in the rain. Kiss her in the snow. Kiss her when she least expects it.
When you fall in love with her, tell her.
-that is the cutiest thing.
and it just made me think
of how lucky i am to have him. <3
i love you baby with all my heart.
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i feel sick, sick not because i really am sick
or anything. i just feel sick.
i couldnt sleep i feel asleep at 3 bc i just
layed there crying after, and i woke up at 9
and couldnt fall back asleep. i dont even know
whats going on anymore. and it makes me mad
-im upset, suprised, & aggravated.
im not sure why you would do something like that
im so disappointed. i thought i could trust you
..not sure about that now. & that alone makes me
wanna cry. you meant the world to me before,
and you still do now, but its different.
after all the crying last night i was thinking
is it worth it, but it really is,
i love you too much. i never want to lose you
..im not sure when your just gonna learn?
i honestly wish i could trust you just to
hang out with the "boys" but that trust wont
come for a long time.
.but i know that we will get through this,
bc we always do, and after hearing the way
you talked to me last night, i wanted to
forgive you right then,
--only if it were that easy.
but baby you scared me last night,
i was really worried. i dont ever
wanna hear that again. i love you too much
-im gone and out for the whole day today
.but its gonna be hard, thats all i will think
about. i just want to be in your arms.
i love you baby with all my heart,
you mean the world to me.
and love, if you want all the dreams to come
true, were gonna have to trust eachother
and never let eachother down...
"..were better then this & it will all be better someday.."
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